Well, I've decided to use this as my secret journal instead of the footprints thing.. cuz the footprints thing isn't panning out. I didn't think it really would, but I just love starting projects for some reason. It'd be cool if one of them actually took off, but I guess I don't have enough perseverance to do that. This will basically be a journal to keep tabs on whats happening in my life and what I'm thinking about generally thoughts and stuff.. its not going to be open to the general public... only to my closer friends. The reason I took down my other website is because Annie saw some things I wrote about her... and she asked me to take em down. So I did... but I got upset/hurt enough that I just took down the entire thing. The theory behind that journal was that if someone cared enough to look up my website and was really interested in what I was writing... I could be honest enough to them to a pretty far extent. The fact was, however, that many people weren't even searching for my site. They're just bored clicked on someone else's site.. linked over to someone elses which linked back to mine and just started reading without caring much about me or what I write. They didn't care to protect me or my feelings about the very personal things I shared. Thus, I was hurt in more than just one incident. I took it down. This will only be known to people who really want to know and who really care. So that way I can be more open. I'm using blogger, because it makes it easier. I'm not sure if I'm going to include pictures like I did in the other journal.. and like jon's journal.. or what. I'm not sure. Anyway.. I have to give a speech on how to make a personal website on friday.. so don't know how thats gonna go.

Today I went to Living Proof which is a Navs bible study on evangelism. Its basically like an evangelism class. The people there seem pretty cool. Maybe its because I already know Sam Ip.. and Candy and candy's friends and mary ann.. and haily.. I'm not sure. Maybe its more than that. The questions seemed very hard and the answers could not be pat answers. Thats cool. I quit jr high advisorship recently.. so.. and Pastor D wants to talk to me about it.. so we'll see what happens with that. I'm looking for fellowship.. thats really what I'm looking for. I've been out of fellowship for a long time.. so it sucks bad.

Work and school has been tough. I feel like relaxing.. chatting.. reading.. writing.. lot of the time.. and I have no chance to do that. The free time I do have.. I am like.. dude gotta sleep or something like that. There isn't much time at all. I don't realy have much time to do what I want.. much less do what I don't want.. like schoolwork. I hope God gives me discipline and energy and stuff like that. I have to open at Jamba tomorrow. First time in a long time. I dunno.. maybe I should cut down on work. Arnold is quitting. I don't want him to.. but I dunno. I would quit so that I would have more time too.. but I need the money I think. Its a crappy reason to stay I know.. but I meet a lot of non christians there. I don't know if I really have a good opportunity to witness to them, but I'd like to try. But anyway.. thats all I have to say for now.. not gonna make this a high pressure thing on myself either.