Okay now I've been back in the States for awhile. This is what is different. Many people I talk to see the excitement and say, "yeah everyone who comes back from a short term is always pumped like that." They say it as if it is some mountain top experience or something. It wasn't a mountain top experience. I didn't experience much in terms of emotionally with my relationship with God. I don't know. Go on a short term and find out what that experience is like. I feel like I'm not allowed to have too much excitement. My excitement indicates to them that there is no substance.